Deep breath turned into life story!

Oh me. What a weird few weeks. I don't even know where to begin. I'll tell you this though.. I have never wanted to move home so bad, with my hubby of course. I want and need my family. Yes, my messed up family. Feels like more than ever. I've come across a few people lately that I thought were my friends. Little did I know. They have their own agenda and care little about those around them. How sad is that. None of my childhood, high school, college or sorority friends were ever like that. No drama, no nothin. I was so lucky and blessed.. Until the last couple years. It's hard for me to handle. Makes me miss those real, true friendships. In high school, i had friends that would drive over to my house on a school night at like 2am just because i was scared. Both kaitlin and liz have done that multiple times for me! That is what i call true friendship! And I have a few of those, thank the lord! I do have really welcoming, Christian people in my life.. Like in Sunday school, they are wonderful people, but we don't feel like we fit just right. That's it, long story short, we feel out of place right now.

Thank goodness for The girls at work! I am loving every second of getting to know them better! && I'm really looking forward to all the plans we've talked about for summer- camping, ball games, bike rides!

Oh and then there is the family. My mom and mammie need prayers. Lots of them. I Pray they can be understanding and patient with each other while they're under the same roof. I could use a prayer to.. I need guidance. I've been pretty complacent with my relationship with my dad. A week went by without a phone call, then a month, a little weird, now it's five months. Which is sad and disheartening because we were finally finding our comfortable spot. I was calling 'just because' and just to share a thought, and he'd do the same. It was so nice. I finally felt that huge void in my heart starting to be filled. But now, 5 months later, feels like square one. Sigh.

I can smell dinner- I should probably check on that! :)